Category: Self-Reflection
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Escaping the Fire: What I Learned from My Most Toxic Relationship
Some relationships don’t shape you through love, but through the scars they leave behind. My first serious girlfriend, S, was one of those. What started as intoxicating passion soon turned into psychological warfare—manipulation, volatility, and cycles of abuse I couldn’t break free from. I stayed, not because I loved her, but because I didn’t love…
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Paul, London Service – After Thoughts
aul, we just attended your service in London. The room was full, overflowing with love and remembrance. I spoke for you, but it wasn’t enough. My thoughts of you have been consuming me, and I feel we need another moment—one that truly reflects who you were. Maybe in the South of France, where we can…
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A Therapist Asked Me WHY I Am Suicidal—Can I Pinpoint It?
I recently went to see a therapist because of all the emotional weight I’ve been carrying—from heartbreak, to the loss of a loved one (Paul), to getting fired multiple times, to getting kicked out of my own childhood home. My dad suggested I go because he saw the signs: when I talk, he can barely…
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The Weight of Inconsistency: Why I Crave Clarity in People
It’s not just one thing—it’s everything piling up. The weight of loss, of isolation, of never knowing where I stand with people. I crave consistency, clarity, directness—but instead, I get shifting intentions, mixed signals, and uncertainty that drains me more than anything. If I could just have clarity, the weight wouldn’t feel so crushing. Instead,…
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A Letter to Y – Weak Men Hide Behind Business Decisions
You see, leadership isn’t about making sure the numbers work. It isn’t about replacing people the second they no longer fit your plans. Leadership is about standing with people through their struggles, not just benefiting from their strengths. But courage is something you lack.
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A Letter to Paul – you were not just a friend… you were… The Friend
Paul, I don’t know how to write this because no words feel enough.No sentence can fully explain what you meant to me, what you were in my life, and the unbearable silence you’ve left behind. You weren’t just a friend—you were the friend.The one I could call when life made no sense.The one who didn’t…
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A Letter to M – The Moment I Saw You Clearly
Some people leave without a word, without an explanation, without looking back. And sometimes, you’re left to make sense of the wreckage alone. This is the letter I needed to write—not for them, but for me. Because closure isn’t something you’re given; it’s something you take.
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Understanding Creativity and Myself: Reflections Inspired by Mihaly Csikszentmihalyi’s “Creativity”
After being fired for the third time, I asked myself why I feel so trapped in corporate environments and whether my creativity was being overlooked. Inspired by Mihaly Csikszentmihalyi’s book Creativity, I reflect on the struggle to align my true creative nature with the demands of the working world, and what it means to find…
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Cringe and Growth: A Reflection on Self-Perception
Cringe—the discomfort we feel looking back at our awkward moments, and how it reflects our growth. This post dives into the paradox of cringe and nostalgia, explores the rise of internet cringe culture, and asks: how can we embrace the discomfort of our past selves while navigating the world of social media?