Category: Self-Reflection
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I Thought I Could Go All In — A Reality Check from the Past 10 Days of Building Afitpilot
After coming back from Nigeria, I thought going all-in on Afitpilot meant 12-hour workdays and sacrificing everything else. But a week and a half into deep solo building—managing code, UX, AI, and mental fatigue—I hit a wall. This is the reset I didn’t plan for, but needed. A new path forward: focused, sustainable, and built…
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I’m Not Built for This – And That’s Okay
I don’t hate coding. I just don’t love it the way some people do. For me, code is a bridge — not the destination. I’m not in it for clever syntax or edge-case elegance. I’m here to build, to create, to bring systems to life. If you’ve ever felt like the only dev who doesn’t…
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My Vow to Myself
I vow to never betray myself to be chosen again. I will no longer shrink my intensity, filter my depth, or soften my truth to fit into anyone else’s comfort zone.If I am too much, they are not my place.If my silence unnerves them, they were only ever listening for their own echo. I vow…
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Letter to Myself — When the Pain Feels Like Truth
I sat in silence before Paul’s grave, candles flickering against the red earth. No words. Just the weight of everything we never got to finish. He walked beside me when no one else did—through doubt, through chaos, through fire. This isn’t just grief. It’s memory. It’s love that refuses to die.
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Touching the Eternal: Mystical and Scientific Perspectives
After losing someone close, the question of what we really are starts to haunt you. Are we just biological machines—neurons firing, cells decaying, nothing more? Or is there something deeper at play—something beyond the physical, something eternal? Grief has a way of cracking open the surface-level answers. It forces you to ask: when life is…
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Are Some People Truly Soulless?
Have you ever met someone who just feels… hollow? Not cruel, not evil—just empty. They function, they do what’s expected, they may even be kind—but there’s no warmth, no deep emotional presence, no sense of soul. Is this feeling subjective, or are there truly people who lack something essential? Let’s explore whether soullessness is a…
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When Everything Falls Apart, Who’s Still There?
When my relationship ended, I found myself in a dark place—lost, emotionally wrecked, and alone. I had prioritized my girlfriend over my friendships, and when she was gone, I had no one left to turn to. But Paul was there. He didn’t hold my absence against me. He reached out, checked in, and asked me…
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Essence Over Time: The Friendships That Endure
People say that time changes everything. That friendships fade, that people outgrow each other, that life moves us in different directions. But I don’t think that’s always true. Some connections don’t weaken with time. Some people don’t become strangers just because years pass. I’ve realized that the friendships that last aren’t the ones built on…
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The Tragic Brilliance and Redemption of Mark: A Life Devoted to Art and Reinvention
Mark spent 15 years chasing artistic prestige, only to find himself struggling financially and emotionally. His pivot to plastering in Whitstable brought him stability, balance, and a newfound appreciation for life. His story serves as a powerful lesson on passion, reinvention, and the importance of adaptability in the pursuit of fulfillment.
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How My Inspirations Shape the Way I Build Digital Experiences
Inspiration comes in many forms, and for me, it’s a fusion of sport, dance, art, architecture, and nature. These passions shape how I approach web design—balancing structure with creativity, discipline with fluidity, and function with aesthetics. Digital experiences should feel as natural as movement, as intentional as architecture, and as expressive as art. This is…